Emilia's daily dose of caffeine

Emilia gets caffeine popped in her milk everyday. This is prescribed in order to prevent apnea of prematurity. She "forgets" to breathe once in a while because her brain is still premature and doesn't know she has to. Babies in the womb don't breathe so it is understandable. If you know me well, you know how much I love coffee. Throughout my pregnancy I stayed away from coffee, coke, and even green tea. Because I am pumping milk, I am still not drinking coffee except decaf. But Emilia gets her own shot of caffeine... She needs that jolt. Sometimes I wonder - what was the point of all the efforts to avoid caffeine??