Emilia is 12 weeks corrected

So, Emilia is already 12 weeks corrected. In actual age, she turned 6 months old yesterday. She had her 6 month vaccine a few days ago. She didn't even cry (and Mommy is not lying).

The NICU days seems like ages ago but it's only been a little more than a month since she came home.

She doesn't nap too much these days that it's even harder for me to update this blog. On the bright side, she sleeps through the night without even making any noise, sometimes up to 10 hours. Hmm... I wonder if this is the reason she has not gained much weight for about 5-6 days. I feel I need to compensate for the milk she didn't get overnight but she still seems to eat the same amount during the day. I bought some children's songs CD to play for her... Actually the real reason was for me to sing along and learn. I need to know these songs before she grows up and asks me how come I don't know any song.

She is licking and sucking her hands all the time. I am becoming even more paranoid about hand-washing now that her hands are constantly in her mouth.

She is getting about 7 hours off oxygen. I want to transition her slowly so that this weaning does not cause her any setback.

Birthday and milestones

Emilia's 100th day (in corrected age) is fast approaching. Actually I feel weird labelling it the 100th day. The 100th day since what? The day she was "supposed be" born? Nonetheless I am not going to just let it pass as we didn't get to have a proper celebration for Emilia's actual 100th day.

Emilia's bithday is May 31 but just like other moms of preemies, I am also wondering whether I should throw the 1st birthday party on her actual birthday or her "supposed" birthday, which is the due date. I hear a lot of preemie parents have a mixed feeling about their baby's 1st b-day...and me too. It's going to be a happy day because Emilia will have made through all the tough time and grown up to be just like other babies but it marks the day I failed her, it's the day she was NOT supposed to be born, it's the day I cried so much and it's the day she was resuscitated and sent to NICU. Besides she will be only 9 months corrected and won't act like other 1 year old birthday girls. But celebrating my due date doesn't feel right either. That due date is meaningless to us except in calculating her corrected age. Should we celebrate the date she came home with us...? Maybe. To my family, that's more like the day she was born. I know her birthday is still half a year away so I still have plenty of time to decide.