Update

She's back on low flow oxygen.... Yep, disappointing but what can I do... She will let us know when she's ready. We can't force her to breathe when she needs to have more oxygen than what's already in the air. Just a miniscule amount of oxygen, but she needs that "whiff".

Realistically she won't be coming home this month. In fact we will spend Thanksgiving in the NICU for sure. I will be happy if she comes home before Halloween.

She's almost 4kg (3.98Kg to be exact). She is more alert these days. She enjoys bath now. Does not cry and does not look too nervous any more during a bath. She doesn't like being weighed though. Must be because of being stripped naked, lifted and moved on to the hard surface of the scale.

Below is just Mommy's whining... if you don't want to see me whine and whine about the same thing, stop reading:
I didn't expect her hospitalization to be this long. It's really exhausting now. Who knew the end of this journey, not the beginning, would be the most difficult time? It feels like I will forever be on a hamster wheel, getting nowhere, running and running until I drop dead with exhaustion. I am trying my best to provide Emilia with all the normal, natural developmental care - bath, musical mobile, music box, visual stimulation, singing, cuddling, talking... but it's so hard to do all the normal things in the hospital. She's already 17 days old corrected. Soon she will be 1 month old. Am I giving her all the things she needs in order to become a normal 1 month old baby? This is what worries me now.


Picture:
Emilia falling asleep after eating. I tried to bundle her but I know, I am a lousy bundler. I can never bundle her in a nice secure way.